Use all your well-learned politesse, Or Ill lay your soul to waste

Haven't blogged in a while. Mostly because of one big reason. RAGNAROK! It's all I can think of, so why babble on about it?

Past few weeks have involved working, hanging with Zac, his SoCal cousin Ben, Charity, yard work, and planning. I have so many lists to fill! I love it...yes I know I'm a OCD freak but I'll have everything I need. Lets hope.

I am very very VERY excited... =D Look at this awesome new tent of mine. Room for me, my crap, and a friendly a friend.

Pillow Stuffed with Bunnies

"I need your input on what tent I should buy."

"I see. Well if you really think about it...divide by 2...take in account the rotation of the sun...read War and Peace...if you really want my thoughts. The blue one."

Adding this to the list of funny and amusing quotes from Zac. =P

I want to know the glory or how boring it is beneath your skin

The weather has be B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!! Hell, just doing chores and spring cleaning outside I'm enjoying. Minus raking. I hate to rake. Cleaned out the yard bins, found a BUNCH of camp stuff. And you know what that means; start collecting for Rag! I'm such an OCD girl, but I know if I don't start now I'll be running around like a mental patient the night before. I'm pretty sure I've got everything I need for camp minus the tent. The tent is kinda important. I get paid this week (I think) and I'll buy my tent with that. And we all know (or you do now) that I researched the fuck out of my tent. I can't just go out to one store, look at a tent in my price range and proclaim "THATS IT! Ring it up Charlie!" I spent a week looking at tents at different stores/sites, think I found the one I want. Zac and I may go out to some sporting goods store (we have none here in MV) and do some more shopping. Plus we needs garb.

And thats what I did yesterday, got out all my garb to see what I have and what I don't. I have a shit-ton of skirts and no shirts. The shirts I do have no longer fit/look good. At least by themselves, this means I'll being wearing my corset(s) the whole time. May be hot, but I'll look hot. BONUS! heh. The downside of losing weight and not having the available funds to buy new clothing. Zac may be generous and get me a few new things, he's awesome like that. <3

Almost got my $60 of saved pocket change for pre-reg Ragnarok. I'm thinking by Rag I'll have a some extra for spending. And I know the parents will help with that. Thank God for them. I really do have the best parents in the world.

So unless something interesting and epic happens in the next 36 days, all I'll be writing about is Ragnarok and Dagorhir. I may or may not be excited. I miss my Militia.

Cellophane flowers of yellow and green

It's a bright, beautiful sunny day and all I want to go it be inside with the curtains drawn and be alone. Maybe it because I'm bleeding. Maybe it because of my money problems. Maybe it's because Zac is home but busy. Maybe its because of some other problems. Maybe it's all of the above. I work, I work in the yard, I eat, I watch tv and movies, I sleep. A few times Zac steals me away and I go outside. He can always make me smile, he's always had that power.

I wanna visit My Hetero-Life mate. But I'm so poor it would be boring as hell, and I'd love to go out or something.

I promise world, I'll come out soon.

You're All The Things I've Got To Remember

Hai thar blog! Did you miss me? I missed you...I know...I've been a very bad girl not updating you. But you like it when I'm bad. It turns you on...

Ok, enough with the dirty talk to inanimate objects.

I have nothing to report really. Zaccy is home. It's bliss...most of the time. We play, hang, and chat. I missed him so much, I'm not over him being home yet. I glomp him on a daily basis with said excuse. No one has any idea how much I love and missed him. I have a few best friends, but none know me as well as him and no one ever will.

In other news my fling is over. I need to focus.

Work is.......work. I enjoy it actually. I love shopping for people, it's kind of awesome. I'm not caught up on my debts yet. Not even close. I'm trying to save, but I don't work much or get paid much and all my money goes straight to paying bills. *sigh* I miss getting tips. Boobs were good for such things. Yay boobies.

The weather has been wonderful the past few days. Wonder how long it will last eh? I haven't gotten the chance to really play in it. Mostly yard work. Which is what I'll be doing today. Zac has/had drill this weekend (and on his b-day! sucks) so no BFF to play with. The talk is there might be a lil chillin today when he gets home. Of next week, neither of us work. Fun times will ensue. Good weather mean a trip to the Columbus Zoo!!! Mom and I go every year. Last year we went in April...it snowed. Yay Ohio?


So did I cover everything? Love, work, weather, friends, family....oh! Sex!

FIRST ADULT THEMED BLOG ENTRY!!
BE WARNED!!!!!!

Well...kinda...first adult themed blurb in a blog entry. Yay penis! I has a sore booty.

OK kiddies! Go outside and play! It's beautiful! And wear sunscreen!!

P.S: Is it time for Ragnarok yet?!?!?

'Cause you've taken too much time, To show me that you're mine

Ah yes…at least once, every girl needs to go through the drunk ex-significant other phone call. The one where they tell you that they’re happy for you and whatever you’re doing or whomever you’re with. And that they are your best friend and always will be. But they love you, you were and are the best thing to ever happen to them and they’re sorry that they messed up and lost you. And if in the future things don’t work and I want to come back, they are there waiting.

A little late…don’t ya think?

Well he’s still my best friend.

And we’ll see how things go when he’s home and we start hanging out again.

And not drunk.

He kinda had his chance…more than once.

Oh Baby You're A Classic

5 Days…Yup…5 whole days util my soldier boy comes home. Zac has been in San Antonio, Texas doing that Army thing. AIT…whatever it is. When he talks about the army, I turn into a dumb girl. None of it makes sense to me, but I nod and listen like a good friend. I try to get the gist of it all, so that all of my questions aren’t that stupid. I can’t tell you how long it took for me to remember “AIT”. I still don’t know what it stands for. All I know is that my best friend (and ex-boyfriend) is in Texas training to be a medic and when he comes back he’s gonna look damn good. I hope his butt is still there, he always had a nice butt.

Theres gonna be some tension…we’ll see how that is when we come to it. One thing at a time, but I’m not worried. Honestly I’m just excited to hang out with him again, we have the best time. I’ve got plans for him…trips to shopping, dinner, movies, events, and practices. I think we’re gonna start a workout schedule. Working out with a soldier…oh God, I’m gonna die.

On another note, 3rd official day of work today. Did really well, boss lady said I kicked ass. Feet not killing me as bad as the first day. Stayed in my super cute yellow heals all day. Oh and my ass looked delicious in my new black pants. Good hair day too. But I had a point about mentioning work…the music. Usually you hear one of two genres of music in stores, pertaining to the ambiance and product in the store. FB is now strictly misses and plus, no more juniors and girls. But the tunes…I was expecting oldies and alt-rock, adult contemporary type stuff. Like the lame ass radio station we have here in town. But holy shit, that tape sounds like my MP3 player on random…although I wouldn’t listen to some of this stuff. I made notes on what I heard:

In Succession:

• Abba
• Backstreet Boys
• Blink 182
• Prince
• Steely Dan
• Velvet Revolver
• Billy Joel
• Alicia Keys
• Panic At The Disco
• Van Halen
• John Mayer
• Bob Marley
• James Brown

I donno, I found it interesting. I sing and dance around the store. The customers seem to enjoy it.

Water Is Good For You

A quote/comment from a friend on this photo The Ides of March event. It make me laugh so hard. (lol hard)

"LOOK AT THAT FUCKING WATER. SWALLOW THAT SHIT DOWN, SON. FEEL THAT HYDRATION? IT'S H20H-SO-GOOD. THIS AIN'T SOME PUSSY AQUAFINA BOTTLE. WE'VE GOT A MOTHERFUCKING GALLON OF AQUEOUS BADASSITUDE FOR YOU TO WRAP YOUR DRY-ASS HUSK OF A FACE AROUND. YOU HEAR WHAT I SAID? AQUEOUS. IT COMES FROM THE LATIN WORD FOR WATER. ROMANS DRANK WATER AND THEY STABBED PEOPLE TO DEATH ALL OVER EUROPE." - Grikk Bloodbeard

Thats some funny fucking shit mother fucker.

This is why I walk to the bar

"Wygle was charged with driving the bar stool while under the influence of alcohol and driving while under suspension. He has pleaded not guilty to the charges and asked for a jury trial. No court date has been set."
By Randy Ludlow,
DUI charge is filed, but man never left bar stool
THE COLUMBUS DISPATCH

This happened in Newark, Ohio...23 miles from my little rural town. Or in "Ohio miles"; 40 minutes away. Here in Ohio we don't measure distance in miles, it's in time. Makes sense to me. Fuck you guys who think its dumb. Anyway, back to my point. Yes I had one. Not everybody in this area (and down in Newark, also pronounced Nerrk) are gun-toting-hog-owning-racist-bigoted-drunk-white trash-assholes. But honestly, this story made me giggle. It's a silly idea and I could prolly see someone I know doing this. *sigh*

I just wanted to share this story, point out that I'm from the area, and that not everyone from here is...dumb.

I am secrets untold

(pictured above, Joatoms)

This dude...we call him Jo...is an "interesting" character. A kind, older gentleman, with that sick, dirty sense of humor that all in our circle have. He joined our ranks recently, bribed us with some delicious booze and charmed us with poems about ourselves. They're too amusing not to share. I am especially intrigued by mine.

(pictured above, Radnor The Baby Raper)
Radnor Shall Rage
Teeth of silver,
horns of jade,
dead baby's bones
Radnor shall rage

Death draws near,
The heat gives hint,
Fire, acid, spewing forth,
Radnor has been sent.

blood on her hands,
And blood on her breath,
But guilt she has not,
Because she loves death.


(Pictured above, Loki)
Loki's Counterfeit Soul
Before you mess with her...there's some things ya should know,
Don't ever fuck with lokis counterfeit Soul...
As quiet as she may be,and sane as she might look..
Stay clear of her wraith...or your body on a hook.
With inner demons like lions to the slaughter...
Your soul will beg for her mercy..your life to cower..
Now I hope you have changed your mind about fucking with her...
Don't know what's your fucking with..you'll see.


(Pictured above, Boz)
Boz
Joint in my maw,
drink in my hand,
whore on my lap,
yeah, I've made the score,
in this green land,
lost in dual insanity
without a care,
flogging a Care Bear,
drinking pessimism
as a matter of course.
No help around the corner,
because the problem is not there,
it does not exist,
even to the pessimist,
so take it and enjoy,
live and cry,
take it and die.


(pictured above, Loki and Jester)
Jester
An arseole the other day
said they could read me every way,
read me like a bloody book
until from them the life I shook.

Every pleasure in their eyes was gone
as they traveled to oblivion,
and I shed not a tear
as I laughed at their fear.


(Pictured above, Awry, Me)
Awry
I am the poison in your veins,
the stride in your walk,
the damp between your thighs,
I hold your reins,
I control your talk,
I fill your pies.

I am secrets untold,
and your fate I hold,
I am not a fantasy,
I am your destiny


(Pictured above, Blackhawk, Non-Militia)
Blackhawk
I am a dark sparrow,
A nights raven,
An angel with black wings.
The hawk of black
I am little dark me,
And that’s all I can be.
Please don’t try to change me,
What I am can not be reversed.
I know my fate,
I know I’m cursed.
I’ve been manipulated,
By his blood I’ve been intoxicated.
I’m not sorry or ashamed.
I am what I am because I was betrayed.
But it turned out that I was deceived in the best way.
I’m happy as I am.